independence

asalammualaikum

sometimes we need to prove to others that we can

we can do it on our own

our own effort

sometimes parents tend to care their children

they afraid that something might happened to us

do not make them worried

as for that, go travel by yourselves

prove that you're independence

no need for others accompanying you, *in some cases

be strong to face the world alone

you only need help from others if you cant do it

just that

be yourself, and use your inner heart to make yourself useful

do not blame your parents or other

go out find yourselves

no friend beside you

on your own, then you'll find yourselves

thank you

smile, move on and looks forward

asalammualaikum

ok memang sekarang agak free

almaklumlah baru masuk sem boleh lah cerita hahahah

ok nak balik

duduk chuchuh ni memang buat hati aku homesick

dengan pekan yang baru nak membangun ni

paling maju kat sini 7-Eleven

power gilos

tapi takpe aku kena senyum move on and looks forward

advantages duduk chuchuh opkos lah dia jimatkan duit

kat sini duit rasa macam kurang berselera nak keluar dari purse

ok papai 

26 Februari 2014, Padang Besar.

p/s: semangat sikit hawa oii

homesick ohoyyy

normal is boring

aku
gila
tapi normal
mengaku muda
comel sentiasa
aku tak kata aku cun
aku comel
natural beauty
aku gigs
fashion killer
aku solo
aku gembira
aku suka duit
aku sayang keluarga
kawan-kawan
cikgusss
memoriess

ada masalah ke dengan kau?

22 - Taylor Swift

It feels like a perfect night to dress up like hipsters
And make fun of our exes, ah ah, ah ah.
It feels like a perfect night for breakfast at midnight
To fall in love with strangers, ah ah, ah ah.

Yeah,
We're happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time
It's miserable and magical, oh, yeah
Tonight's the night when we forget about the deadlines
It's time

Uh oh!
I don't know about you
But I'm feeling 22
Everything will be alright
If you keep me next to you
You don't know about me
But I'll bet you want to
Everything will be alright
If we just keep dancing like we're
22
22

It seems like one of those nights,
This place is too crowded.
Too many cool kids, ah ah, ah ah (who's Taylor Swift anyway, ew?)
It seems like one of those nights,
We ditch the whole scene and end up dreaming
Instead of sleeping.

Yeah,
We're happy, free, confused, and lonely in the best way
It's miserable and magical, oh, yeah
Tonight's the night when we forget about the heartbreaks
It's time

Uh oh! (hey!)
I don't know about you
But I'm feeling 22
Everything will be alright
If you keep me next to you
You don't know about me
But I'll bet you want to
Everything will be alright (alright)
If we just keep dancing like we're
22 (oh, oh, oh)
22
I don't know about you
22
22

It feels like one of those nights,
We ditch the whole scene.
It feels like one of those nights,
We won't be sleeping.
It feels like one of those nights,
You look like bad news,
I gotta have you,
I gotta have you.

Oh oh yeah hey!
I don't know about you
But I'm feeling 22
Everything will be alright
If you keep me next to you
You don't know about me (you don't know about me)
But I'll bet you want to
Everything will be alright
If we just keep dancing like we're
22
22
22, yeah, yeah
22, yeah, yeah, yeah

It feels like one of those nights,
We ditch the whole scene
It feels like one of those nights,
We won't be sleeping
It feels like one of those nights,
You look like bad news,
I gotta have you,
I gotta have you.

*suka lagu ni, macam ada memori called back*

p/s : i miss my friendsss, and i'm 20 but not act like one.
matured in my own childish wayy :)

bitch please?

me weird?

bitch, i'm limited edition.

I can be the nicest person you'll ever know, but I can also be the b*tch you'll always hate. 

It all depends on how you treat me.

p/s : sorry, i am just a little nice towards you, no me that more nice to you in the past.

there's one friend now who become a stranger. It is hurt.

Its a good thing you try to approach me, but sorry. It seemed that it is hard to forget what you did to me.

#wordless Monday

"Be Your Everything"

Four letter word

But I don't have the guts to say it

Smile 'til it hurts

Let's not make it complicated

We've got a story

And I'm about to change the ending

You're perfect for me

And more than just a friend

So we can just stop pretending now

Gotta let you know somehow

I'll be your shelter

I'll be your storm

I'll make you shiver

I'll keep you warm

Whatever weather

Baby I'm yours

Be your forever, be your fling

Baby I will be your everything

Baby I

Baby I will

Baby I will be your everything

We used to say

That we would always stick together

But who's to say

That we could never last forever

Girl, got a question

Could you see yourself with somebody else?

'Cause I'm on a mission

And I don't wanna share

I want you all to myself right now

I just wanna scream it out

I'll be your shelter

I'll be your storm

I'll make you shiver

I'll keep you warm

Whatever weather

Baby I'm yours

Be your forever, be your fling

Baby I will be your everything

Baby I

Baby I will

Baby I will be your everything

No matter what you do, yeah,

Oh, I'll be there for you

And every time you close your eyes

I will be by your side

'Cause every time you make me sing

Baby I will be your everything

I'll be your shelter

I'll be your storm

But I'll make you shiver

I'll keep you warm

Whatever weather

Baby I'm yours

Be your forever, be your fling

Baby I will be your everything

Baby I

Baby I will

Baby I will be your everything

Baby I

Baby I will

(I'll be your storm)

Baby I will be your everything

Baby I

(Yeah, yeah)

Baby I will

Baby I will be your everything

*aku suka lagu ni hahaha*

p/s : nakk balikkkk :'(

mental breakdown #2

asalammualaikum

aku rasa aku ni nak syabas tak lama lagi
terasa emo semacam
haduhh
aku tak tahu dah nak buat macam mana lagi
aku approach kau, kau kata aku sibuk
gaya kau cakap main-main tu tak berapa sangat aku sakit hati
extra words kau buat aku sakit hati
aku pon bukan lah bodoh sangat bila kau buat muka ketat depan aku
aku memang sengaja buat muka tak faham
itu cara aku nak buat kau sakit hati pulak
"kau baik dengan aku, aku baik dengan kau. kau buat tahi dengan aku, aku buat tahi dengan kau"
fair enough
aku tak kisah aku jalan sorang-sorang, makan sorang-sorang
tapi aku sakit hati dengan kau, kawan-kawan kau pandang pelik kat aku
aku tak tahu salah aku apa kalau kau tak bagitahu aku gila
kalau aku rasa kau betul, aku boleh ubah diri aku, mana yang melampau lah
dan aku nak bagitahu jugak, jangan ingat aku diam bila kau perli aku, kutuk aku
aku heartless? aku manusia weyh, dalam hati aku sumpah seranah kau, bitch
aku kesian nak sumpah seranah kau, sebab kalau ikut mulut aku, aku lagi laser dari kau
muka cun, lembut, gelak tutup mulut, pemalu #IniSemuaPoyo
hampehh dengan aku, bullshit semua tu serius

RT

Tough times never last, but tough people do.

I don’t trust easily, so when I tell you I trust you, please don’t make me regret it.

That one best friend that turned into a stranger.

*Love me or hate me personally I won't care less*

p/s : kau buat aku annoying dengan kau

mental breakdown

asalammualaikum


cerita dalam blog ni bukan cerita gembira je okayy
The best way to lose my respect is to say anything about me behind my back. You can say it to my face.

# cerita 1

macam nilah
aku tak tahu apa masalah kau
aku dah malas nak tahu apa pon pasal kau
janji kau tak buat tahi kat aku lagi dah, kira okay lah
untuk kesekian kalinya, aku tak batak lelaki
aku lebih selesa berseorangan macam ni
aku ada family, dan kawan-kawan yang sudi nak paham aku macam mana
aku, erti kata sebenarnya dah fed up / give up
sebab tu aku biar lah apa kau nak buat
lantak kau lah
aku malas nak fikir pasal kau dah
buang masa otak aku berfikir
sebab aku percaya kau dah dewasa, tahu beza baik dan buruk
sebab bila aku tegur kau, kau tak nak dengar
so kau tak perlukan aku dah kan
okay, fine
i'm okay
aku boleh hidup, tak matilah takde kau
sekarang ni, aku dah malas nak fikir apa pon pasal kau, not worth
jadi buatlah apa pon yang kau suka
kau mesti ingat aku dah maafkan kau, okaylah aku maafkan kau
tapi aku malas nak fikir pasal kau dah
that's it

#cerita 2

aku cukup  menyampah kalau kau cakap benda tak elok pasal aku, kat belakang aku
"kalau berani, cakap depan aku"
masalahnya sebab kau tak berani, kau tak cakap depan aku
yang paling aku bengang asal kawan kau pulak buat muka kat aku?
aku tak tahu apa yang aku kena ubah kat diri aku, atau apa kau tak puas hati kat aku,
dengan cara kau tak bagitahu aku
jangan babi sangat dengan aku
dok perli aku, bagai ni kau ingat aku bodoh tak paham?
eh please lah, jangan celaka sangat dengan aku
aku kira baik dengan kau, sebab aku tahu kau anak yatim
tapi kau jangan ingat anak yatim boleh sedap mulut laser orang
kau fikir lah, nak berjaya
attitude kau tu kena jaga, habluminalllah, habluminannas
ye kau cantik sopan, lemah lembut depan lelaki
depan aku, kau buat tahi pulak
cakap berani, buat tak boleh
try lah, tegur aku pon tak boleh
aku tak kisah pada mulanya, bila kau tak nak bercakap dengan aku
aku pon ada kisah? serious aku ambik inisiatif tegur kau
kau layan aku balik dengan "ah, k, aah"
serius celaka gila

#cerita 3

ni lagi satu aku bengang
weyh kau ingat kau hensem sangat?
serius, bila kau cakap, dah lama tak nampak aku memang babi gila
aku naik bas dengan kau pagi tu kau tahu tak
sekarang masalahnya
kau kenal ke aku?
nama aku pon kau panggil salah, nama kawan aku
ye aku tak se-cun kawan aku, tapi aku ada nama
dan nama aku "HAWA"
dah lah salah nama aku, ada hati aku nak datang perjumpaan bagai bangang tu?
weyh memang aku diam, sebab aku tak tahu apa, tapi serious lepas ni aku dah malas nak diam, so aku tak datang terus, ha ok kan
gi mampus lah
cam celaka lagi, kau suruh semua orang add kau kat fb
aku add, kau approved pon tak, celaka tak?
last-last cuti tadi aku cancel friend request
cam babi tak
serious aku malas nak terlibat meeting
kalau nak suruh aku buat kerja, aku nak under biro aku cukup
dok melangut dalam meeting cam tunggul, ye aku tahu aku tak bercakap bagi pendapat
itu sebab korang dah conquer meeting tu
aku pon baru first year, so aku tak tahu lagi nak buat event ni semua
serious aku bengang, kau bagilah kawan aku tu semua kerja
dia pon gatal nak semua kerja
sekarang ni aku memang dah tak nak terlibat apa-apa pon organisasi apa
sebab aku malas nak bagi komitmen
habis first year ni, aku dah takmo dah jadi ahli board
buat penat pale otak aku

*******************

ha kan sesi luahan perasaan sorry
sekarang ni, aku nak kawan je semua orang
aku tak nak rapat sangat dah dengan seseorang
sebab aku tak nak sakit hati lagi dah
enough is enough
aku sayang kawan sixten aku, dorang layan aku elok je itorang
memang kitorang jauh, tapi dorang paham aku
aku tahu korang take time nak kenal aku, prosses nak kenal, ni jangan buat tahi kat aku
mulut kena jaga, attitude.
jangan aku je yang jaga hati kau, kau tak jaga hati aku
kau ingat aku apa, manusia takde perasaan? memang celakalah
mental breakdown aku dengan korang ni
sorry lah aku tak nak dah terlibat apa pon dengan korang
aku  tak nak dah tambah dosa, dok marah korang je, caci maki korang
so, aku nak diam je
biar aku hidup dalam dunia aku
aku pon tader sapa dah aku nak mengadu its okay, aku boleh luahkan kat blog ni,

*bukan korang je hidup kat bumi Allah ni*

p/s : aku memang seorang yang pedendam, tapi aku tak ekspress

prinsip hidup aku "kau buat baik dengan aku, aku buat baik dengan kau. kau buat tahi dengan aku, aku buat tahi dengan kau"

goodbye 2012, hai 2013

asalammualaikum

today is the last day of 2012

okay banyak jugak 

suka gumbira happy sedih masam manis pahit segalalah

untuk setahun 2012 ni kalau aku buat salah

aku mintak ampun maaf

aku ni mulut comel

 perangai pon molek ajee

semualah molek, hee ;p

harap kita saling bermaafan :)

"the first to apologize is the bravest.

the first to forgive is the strongest,

and the first to forget is the happiest"

esok 1st Jan 2013

start first paper final exam

wish me luck peeps

and my friendss and bebudak final yang amik degree

"semoga Allah permudahkan urusan kita, aminn"

okay harap aku akan keep on smiling, semangat3x untuk 2013

* muka comel tak bersalah, who miss this style of tudung? *

p/s : comel je style tudung ni HAHA #SEPINTAR

kawan-kawan, good luck in exam! let's fight! HWAITING

bittaufiq wannajah filimtihan :)

bk

too sudden, i'm not all like this

not frequently, not usually

but sometimes, i do miss him

i do not have any relationship with him

yeahh, i am admiring him, adore him

i used to like, and miss him

for 6 years

" can you imagine that love - kyle beastly "

i don't want any relationship with him, just maybe

can we be friends?

or

we can be closed to?

or

just like brother and sister

suddenly missing him

sorry bk

i am trying to move on

* bk *

p/s : mood aku tengah pelik, seminggu ni aku akan ada masalah attitude, thought and emotion.

girl's problem, sorry.

semangat!!

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best - Marilyn Monroe

* you're a tough person, hawa! be cool and semangat!! *

p/s : i am me, who are you bitch?

go hell

never grow up

do listen and feel it  :')

Nevershoutnever - Losing It

all we ever did was move around
i was always the new kid, never the cool kid
but all i ever wanted to do was to fall in love
just to be in love

but my heart was racing
my mind was screaming
you've got your whole life to do these things
but my legs were shaking
my hands were searching for her in the backseat of my car
i just lost it
and i can't believe it

i knew i was only sixteen
but i thought i loved her and it'd last forever
but only if i knew that she wasn't true
how could she do this to me?

my heart was racing
my mind was screaming
you've got your whole life to do these things
but my legs were shaking
my hands were searching for her in the backseat of my car
i just lost it
and i can't believe it 

* people gets old, not maturity *

p/s : aku suka gila lagu, favourite playlist heee, actually malas typing :)

dah lama tak buat kerja gila, rasanya aku bakal buat minggu ni.

nak jadi gila jap. SOON

i'm back

asalammualaikum

haii, okay agak awkward

aku dah lama tak blogging, ada nak habis satu sem dah kat UniMAP

 insyaAllah aku dah boleh blogging kot

sorry gayungsurau memang dah tader

sebab ada gambar aku yang comel, exposed dalam hal-hal politik

so aku tukar URL, nama dan sebagainyalah

so please do visit, read and feel it my blog

hawabaek.blogspot.com

 okay toceee

* the faces *

p/s : i miss blogging :))

All Time Low - Remembering Sunday ft. Juliet Simms

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoesStarted making his way past two in the morningHe hasn't been sober for days
Leaning now into the breeze remembering SundayHe falls to his knees, they had breakfast togetherBut two eggs don't last like the feeling of what he needs
Now this place seems familiar to himShe pulled on his hand with a devilish grinShe led him upstairs, she led him upstairsLeft him dying to get in
Forgive me, I'm trying to findMy calling, I'm calling at nightI don't mean to be a bother, but have you seen this girl?She's been running through my dreamsAnd it's driving me crazy, it seemsI'm gonna ask her to marry me
And even though she doesn't believe in loveHe's determined to call her bluffWho could deny these butterflies?They're filling his gut
Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar facesHe pleads though he triesBut he's only deniedNow he's dying to get inside
Forgive me, I'm trying to findMy calling, I'm calling at nightI don't mean to be a bother, but have you seen this girl?She's been running through my dreamsAnd it's driving me crazy, it seemsI'm gonna ask her to marry me
There's a neighbor said, she moved awayFunny how it rained all dayI didn't think much of it thenBut it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see nowThat all of these clouds are following meIn my desperate endeavorTo find my whoever, wherever she may be
I'm not coming back, I've done something so terribleI'm terrified to speak but you'd expect that from meI'm mixed up, I'll be bluntNow the rain is just washing you out of my hair
And out of my mind, keeping an eye on the worldSo many thousands of feet off the groundI'm over you now, I'm at home in the cloudsTowering over your head
Well I guess I'll go home nowI guess I'll go home nowI guess I'll go home nowI guess I'll go home

* have you seen this girl? *

p/s : tangkap cintan dengan lagu ni :DD

oh ya, nak tgok video pause lah payphone default music blog ni ok

papaii

Uni preparationss

Assalammualaikum

hai fellas :)

aku rasa tak percaya jugak

i have my own laptop now :D

tapi tak guna lagi, sebab sayang sangat :')

toucheeed

ingat masuk uni baru nak guna

thanks mama and abah ^____^

terkejut sangat WOAHH

balik dari bazaar ramadhan 

tengok-tengok ada satu bag besar dalam laundry basket

mula-mula rasa nak mengamuk jugak, sape la hai gedik letak dalam laundry basket aku ni

dan biasanya ib memang selalu gedik letak barang dia dalam laundry basket aku

dan aku mula nak bising nak campak dah bag tu

tapi pelik sebab tak pernah nampak bag tu

then, bukak WOAHH!!

kujat aku HAHA jakun plus batak

ye lah, aku mintak benda lain, dapat benda lain

nampaknya ipod tu memang aku kena usaha sendiri lah nak beli

SEMANGAT HAWA!

dan aku nak beli phone baru 

nak mintak tajaan abah sikit, hehehe

al-maklumlah, phone sekarang tengah mental breakdown

samalah tuannya

mesej receive hanya bila aku nak call orang

habis tu kalau aku tak call orang sape hantar mesej memang tak masuk

minngu lepas orang hantar, minggu depan baru dapat

dah lah aku guna pon tak sangat phone tu

sebab tu kalau nak contact aku, guna twitter or fb je

maju tak? HAHA 

lantak korang nak kata aku show off ke apa
ini bukan cerita kaya ke hapa
aku tader lappy pon dulu 
bila mintak kat abah, memang abah dah cakap
"masuk U baru abah belikan"

mula-mula aku pakai lappy abah je (guna bila ada kat rumah)

yang mana asyik-asyik skrin putih

lepas tu bunyi "tettttttt" lama gila, baru bukak windows

pernah hari tu dua jam aku tunggu

mangai telinga aku :'(

tapi sekarang dah okay sikit lah lappy abah

best je lappy abah :') sebab dah macam aku punya
setting baik punya kat bilik aku ni haa

kat matriks aku pakai notebook 

kecik, tapi ok je, senang bawak ke mana-mana 
and ofkos mata aku ppon comel lote pandang skrin HAHA

Syukur, Alhamdulillah

lagipon abah memang dah janji
 mana-mana anak abah masuk uni, abah belikan lappy baru 

sekarang ni tinggal ib je lahh :) 

GO GO ib!!

big hug and thanks abah and mama

nak kata aku prepare nak masuk uni ni tak banyak mana pon

sebab aku rasa aku akan pakai balik baldi zaman sepintar and matrics

selipar, cadar katil, bantal, dan macam-macam lagi lahh

cuma sekarang berusaha cari blaus bagi feminin sikit lah

dan sekarang baju kurung pon aku tengah on going menjahit

nak masuk 4 pasang dah YEAHH

dengan borang yang macam 'best' sangat perlu diisi

esok nak nak ambik gambar pasport

hehehe, aku nak pakai tudung apa eh?

ingat nak pakai gambar passport ni je?

 pewiitt comelnya budak ni HAHA

dan dan kena marah dengan abah

gambar pasport ni aku buat gedik sesaja time keluar outing dengan ezyn and nadia

HAHA :D

abah suruh pakai proper sikit 

tak proper ke ni? cuma agak comical sikit lah HAHAHA

ok lah kan

prepaations aku tak banyak mana pon :)

mana yang ada je lah

cuma sekarang ni memang pening kepala dengan borang yang 'best' gila ni

act, cuak jugak nak masuk UniMap

environment baru, kawan baru

aku bukannya pandai berkawan pon

muka pon ketat, semua ingat aku sombong masa first masuk matriks

sapa kenal aku, tahu lah aku macam mana sebenarnya 

dah lah jauh, homesick lah aku :'(

kalau aku masuk uni ni, mmg aku tak duduk rumah sangat 10 tahun 

ye kot? anggaran lahh

its okayy

SEMANGAT SEMANGAT SEMANGAT HAWA!!

ok penat taip

kalau aku rajin, aku update selalu

papai :p

* nervous nak masuk dunia baru *

p/s : My problem is I tend to be shy at first, but once you get to know me and once i'm comfortable around you, I act like I'm on crack :D